REVIEW: History is All You Left Me by Adam Silvera

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Title: History is All You Left Me
Author: Adam Silvera
Format: Paperback, 294 pages
Publication: January 17th 2017 by Soho Teen
Source: Bought from National Book Store
Genre: Fiction—Contemporary, Realistic
Other classifications: Depression and Mental Illness, LGBTQIA, Young Adult

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Synopsis

When Griffin’s first love and ex-boyfriend, Theo, dies in a drowning accident, his universe implodes. Even though Theo had moved to California for college and started seeing Jackson, Griffin never doubted Theo would come back to him when the time was right. But now, the future he’s been imagining for himself has gone far off course.

To make things worse, the only person who truly understands his heartache is Jackson. But no matter how much they open up to each other, Griffin’s downward spiral continues. He’s losing himself in his obsessive compulsions and destructive choices, and the secrets he’s been keeping are tearing him apart. If Griffin is ever to rebuild his future, he must first confront his history, every last heartbreaking piece in the puzzle of his life.

Review

In History is All You Left Me, Silvera delivers a surprisingly quiet, thoughtful exploration of friendship, grief, love, and loss.

The book alternates in story lines between ‘History’, where we see Griffin and Theo falling in love and transitioning from best friends to boyfriends, and ‘Today’, where we see Griffin navigating through a Theo-less world. As is the case with More Happy Than Not, the author does what he does best: writing everyday moments with a severe awareness of human connection. It doesn’t matter whether Griffin, Theo, and Wade are browsing the shelves of Barnes & Noble or they’re exchanging gifts or Griffin is talking to Theo’s family, it’s compelling and laced with pockets of emotion. The parents—and all the main characters have parents—are very much a part of the story, to boot, and I like how Silvera doesn’t pull away from the infinite paradoxes of familial love. Sometimes Griffin would adore and hate his parents in one page or he would be annoyed with his dad for being too cold to Jackson but at the same time be annoyed with his mom for being too nice to Jackson or how Mr. and Mrs. Jennings, his parents, only want what’s best for their son but also operate on their own definition of what’s best for him. We still do not often see parent involvement in YA, but I’m glad there are authors like Adam Silvera and Becky Albertalli who are gradually taking down the barriers.

“He shrugs, which I know he doesn’t mean as a dismissal. He’s doing that thing I’ve done before where I try to shrink my own feelings, try to make my problems sound smaller to others because sometimes people just don’t get it.”

Two of the many important themes of the book are grief and Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD). I am not personally familiar with the former. The closest to family I’ve lost is my uncle’s wife, and I was eight. But the empathy with which Silvera looks into grief is palpable. You follow Griffin and the messed up things he does and not once do you question if this is uncalled for or unlikely. He is hurt and grieving and confused and lost and seventeen, and this ultimately affects all the relationships he has around him. And then there’s the latter. This, I am not not personally familiar with. I have a self-diagnosed Obsessive Compulsive Personality Disorder (OCPD)—yes, those two are different and not by the mere addition of ‘Personality’—and I commend how consistent and consistently woven in the narrative OCD is. It plays a big part in Griffin’s story without ever taking center stage. It isn’t an item the author checked off in his list for inclusivity; it is a constant struggle for the MC and this is reality for people dealing with this mental disorder.

“‘I’m ready,” I lied. I’m hungry, I’m drained, I’m over it all, and I’m not ready.”

However, perhaps my favorite element of the whole novel is the dialogues. I don’t exactly know how to classify Silvera’s writing style. It isn’t lyrical but it also isn’t just straight-cut contemporary; there’s something rhythmic about how he plays at words, a cadence poetic all its own. Here is a person with an utter sense of language. And this is evident with the exchanges between the characters, not just between Griffin and Theo, although those are my favourite scenes. Plus, did I mention this book is filled to the brim with nerdy and pop culture references? You don’t need to be a Star Wars fan or a Potterhead, if you’ve felt passionate about something or someone, you speak Griffin’s and Theo’s language. You speak nerd. Or fanboy. Or whatever you wish to call it.

““You’re not someone that just memorizes facts for exams and forgets them the next day. You don’t just have lucky guesses in pop quizzes. You bring textbooks with you into the shower. Basically, you’re a really weird superhero.”
He forces a smile. “One day, Batman is going to take off his mask and, boom, it’ll be me.””

Silvera’s sophomore novel is quieter than his debut but it is no less vivid and heartrending.

4.0 out of 5

Author

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Adam Silvera was born and raised in the Bronx. He has worked in the publishing industry as a children’s bookseller, at a literary development company, and as a book reviewer of children’s and young adult novels. His debut novel, More Happy Than Not, received multiple starred reviews and is a New York Times bestseller. He lives in New York City and is tall for no reason.

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REVIEW: More Happy Than Not by Adam Silvera

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Title: More Happy Than Not
Author: Adam Silvera
Format: E-ARC
Publication: June 2nd 2015 by Soho Teen
Source: Publisher via Edelweiss (thank you Meredith Barnes, Soho Press and Edelweiss!)
Genre: Fiction—Coming of Age, Contemporary
Other classifications: LGBTQIA, Young Adult

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Synopsis

The Leteo Institute’s revolutionary memory-relief procedure seems too good to be true to Aaron Soto—miracle cure-alls don’t tend to pop up in the Bronx projects. Aaron could never forget how he’s grown up poor, how his friends aren’t there for him, or how his father committed suicide in their one-bedroom apartment. Aaron has the support of his patient girlfriend, if not necessarily his distant brother and overworked mother, but it’s not enough.

Then Thomas shows up. He has a sweet movie-watching setup on his roof, and he doesn’t mind Aaron’s obsession with a popular fantasy series. There are nicknames, inside jokes. Most importantly, Thomas doesn’t mind talking about Aaron’s past. But Aaron’s newfound happiness isn’t welcome on his block. Since he can’t stay away from Thomas or suddenly stop being gay, Aaron must turn to Leteo to straighten himself out, even if it means forgetting who he is.

Review

I received a review copy from the publisher which in no way swayed my opinion about the work.

More Happy Than Not is a strong debut from YA newcomer Adam Silvera. It is as unrelenting as it is hopeful, as gut-wrenching as it is absorbing.

Set in a Bronx neighborhood that is a character of its own and with a bit of a speculative tinge, Aaron Soto’s story may seem ordinary, another of those teens navigating the firsts—first love, first kiss, first sex. But it’s not before long ’til Silvera starts tearing down expectations, busting one assumption after another. The plot twist sucker-punched me and, just when I thought he’s exhausted his arsenal, he delivers the final blow. He paints the extent to which being gay in a close-minded community may lead to all sorts of horror with severe, and often brutal, honesty. There were multiple instances I had to stop reading because his words cut deep.

“This is one of those times where you swear you have to be sleeping and living a nightmare because it’s so impossible that your life can only be a string of bad things until you’re completely abandoned.”

In More Happy Than Not, the author plays at one of the oldest societal debates: nature vs. nurture. Aaron firmly holds that his being a “dude-liker” is something he didn’t choose but rather something he had to deal with. It’s refreshing to view sexuality through this lens, especially in line with homophobia. And especially considering how this novel wins at diversity. Not only does it have a gay MC, it has a Puerto Rican gay MC. But that’s not all of it. In one scene, Thomas tells Aaron, “I was the only brown Scorpius Hawthorne” and it doesn’t feel forced. I think Silvera’s voice—unabashed and observant as it is—is a promising addition to an important conversation.

“It’s not like my heart is in running or anything like that, but at least I learned that you can’t always choose who you’re going to be. Sometimes you’re fast enough to run track. Sometimes you’re not.”

Then, you have the characterization. One thing that’s remarkable is the chemistry between the characters. They are complicated, thrown in further complicated positions, but Silvera successfully balances the complexity with relatability. He didn’t try to redeem the bad guys (for lack of a better term) and that’s a major score. And there’s family dysfunction. Aaron comes from a poor family (which, I cannot overstate this, is scarce in literature but is a reality) and it’s not an easy household.

“This is the most painfully confusing time in my life and he’s the first person who said all the right words to me and reminds me of the first days of summer where you leave home without jacket, and my favorite songs playing over and over.”

I want to point out, as well, how geeky the book is. There are several pop culture references—leaning heavily on comics—and you don’t need to know that the author is a potterhead to observe the winks and nods to the Harry Potter series. Plus, I really enjoyed moments when Aaron and Genevieve (I’m going to use “the girlfriend” as a descriptor but, trust me, you’d want to get to know her) would hang out or when Aaron and Thomas would and, this is me being nostalgic, I love how street games are a big part of the community Aaron lives in.

“Do you think there’s a chance you were someone really awful in a past life? Like Darth Vader? I feel like you can’t catch a break.”

With characters as unforgettable as the book is unflinching in its portrayal of confusion, love, homophobia, family, friendship and a lot more, Silvera is set to win many, many fans. He’s barely started, too. Readers who adore Benjamin Alire Sáenz’s Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe will come upon another favorite.

4.5 out of 5

Author

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Adam Silvera was born and raised in the Bronx and is tall for no reason. He was a bookseller before shifting to children’s publishing where he worked at a literary development company, a creative writing website for teens, and as a book reviewer of children’s and young adult novels. He lives in New York City.

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 Have I convinced you to pick up this title when it comes out (2 weeks from today!)? Are you a fan of heartrending coming-of-age stories? And will you take the Leteo procedure if you can? There’s an amazing pool of emerging new voices in the book industry, especially in YA, who are your recent favorites? Tell me in the comments below! I always want to hear from you! Also, while you’re at it, you may want to participate in The “More Happy Than Not” Tag?

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I Am More Happy Than Not

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UPDATED: Until now, I’m still overwhelmed by Adam Silvera’s and Becky Albertalli’s reactions to this post, not to mention the generous comments left by other bloggers (thank you!). So I’ve decided to turn this into a tag (well, not without encouragement from fellow bookworm/friend Dianne of Oops! I Read A Book Again)! There are only three simple rules: (1) answer the question “What makes you more happy than not?”, (2) link back to this post (so I can read your entry) or to the person who tagged you, and (3) have FUN.

Whenever I see piles of books everywhere, though at this point it is ridiculous how I still don’t have bookshelves, I am more happy than not.

Whenever I drink coffee, though almost always the instant kind, I am more happy than not.

Whenever I spend time with my now two-year-old godson Carlisle, though seldom and inevitably leads to me feeling like five hundred pounds of exhausted (I’m exaggerating but you get the point), I am more happy than not.

Whenever I listen to music, though the same albums again and again, I am more happy than not.

Whenever I go through the comments in my blog, though far from reaching the count worth speaking of, I am more happy than not.

Whenever I eat, though a basic necessity but especially when it’s time for dessert, I am more happy than not.

Whenever I get a tweet from someone I look up to one way or another, though rendering me a big mess of fanboy incoherence often times, I am more happy than not.

Whenever I write, though not as productive as I wish I were, I am more happy than not.

Whenever I daydream of one day walking across the streets of Paris, though a hackneyed portrait, I am more happy than not.

Whenever I’m reminded that I have a loving family (grandparents, uncles, aunts and cousins included), though my parents parted when I was eleven, I am more happy than not.

Whenever I am hit by the realization that I have this diverse bunch of wonderful people I call friends, though the half I suck at getting in touch with and the other half I have yet to meet in person (yes, don’t talk nonsense, our friendship built through the internet is legit), I am more happy than not.

Whenever I watch a film, though not as regularly as I used to and especially when I go alone, I am more happy than not.

Whenever I sing and dance in the shower, though sounding nowhere near decent, I am more happy than not.

Whenever I reflect to that one fortuitous summer day when I picked up To Kill a Mockingbird when I could’ve chosen something else, though there was no way of knowing then how it’ll change my life forever (okay that’s super cheesy, whatever), I am more happy than not.

And whenever I read, I am perpetually more happy than not. (Though, yeah, some characters are vexing.)

What makes YOU More Happy Than Not?

Here’s what makes other people More Happy Than Not:

Summer @ Xingsings
Wesaun @ Oreo And Books
Miguel @ The Quirky Reader
Randstein @ Hyperion Sturm
Michelle @ Putting My Feet In The Dirt
Joey @ Thoughts And Afterthoughts
Danni Mae @ Danni Mae
Stefani @ Caught Read Handed
Liam @ Liam’s Library
Dianne @ Oops! I Read A Book Again
Katherine @ Neon Yeti Reads
Josephine @ Josie’s Book Corner
Ashley @ Dear World…
Josh @ Been There, Read That
Alyssa @ The Devil Orders Takeout
Maren @ The Worn Bookmark
Marie @ Drizzle And Hurricane Books
Aimee @ Deadly Darlings
Faye @ Written In Blue
Lauren @ SERIESous Book Reviews
Casey @ Inspired By The Page
Chiara @ Books For A Delicate Eternity
Romi @ Where The Writer Comes To Write
Chrystal @ Snowdrop Dreams
Erika @ Erika in Bookventureland
Christina @ Fairy Skeletons
Lia @ Book Land
Raven @ Dreamy Addictions
Analee @ Book Snacks
Victoria @ Escape Into Pages
Kimsiang @ The BookRabbicorn
Joey @ Bloggin’ Books And Stuff
Rose Marie @ A Reading Writer
Erika @ Rickus Bookshelf
LJ @ All My Love, LJ
Aetheristrux @ The Amazing Life Of A Bookworm
Alexia @ Booklexia
McKenzie @ Bookish Things And Tea
Stephanie @ A Reader’s Oasis
Tasha @ The Bookie Monsters
Cassandra @ Life With Cassandra
Kate @ The Book Goddess
Ashley @ Dreaming Through Literature
Charley @ Booksandbakes1
Caz @ Travelling In My Bookcase
Shannon @ In A Wonderland They Lie
Lizzy @ Lizzyreadsbooks
Amy @ Curiouser And Curiouser
Victoria @ Addlepates And Book Nerds

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